Pregnant!

(Disclaimer: Sadly, this pregnancy was not a successful one. I started to miscarry only a few short days after finding out I was pregnant.)


I am completely amazed and excited to say that my 2^nd round of Clomid worked! I actually ovulated and SURPRISE!!! I’M PREGNANT! I cannot believe it. Jonathan and I are over the moon with joy that God has given us this precious gift. It feels like we had been trying for so long, and now that it’s actually happened it seems so surreal.

On CD18 I had a pretty large jump in my BBT temp along with my first PEAK reading on the Clearblue advanced fertility monitor.

I thought it was strange that the temp rise indicated I had ovulated the day before. The next day, fortunately was a snow day and I didn’t have to go to work because I was SUPER tender in my right ovary area. I mean, REALLY tender! It hurt to cough even. Around 4:30 that day, I was hurting so bad that I was shaky and felt like I was about to throw up! So I laid in my bathroom floor curled up for about 20 minutes, after which the pain started to subside. Never went away completely though. I thought to myself, “Well I’ve already ovulated, so I don’t know what the heck that was.” I got my crosshairs on Fertility friend the next day for CD 17 so I was really confused. Temps continued to rise and on Saturday, FF moved my crosshairs to CD19, same day I had all the pain! I was amazed but so confident that it was accurate, I had in fact ovulated and we were officially in the TWW.

7dpo I started having the slightest twinges in the center, which of course had me semi excited thinking that I could be implanting. Those little pains continued randomly so I started by testing at 9 dpo, which was negative. 10dpo I had what was the FAINTEST hint of a line you could possibly have, so I wasn’t convinced.

 Took another test that afternoon with just slightly a little more visible but still not really there.

 

I was truly believing that I was pregnant while Jonathan still wasn’t sure. He didn’t think he saw anything and just was sort of in denial while I was jumping around the house like a crazy woman, going to the bathroom every 20 minutes to look at the test again.

11dpo’s test was what I consider to be my BFP!

 It was still super faint, but more visible than the day before. I pulled out a onesie that I have had hidden since we first started TTC and put in by the bathroom sink with the test.

Jonathan woke up around 6:30AM and asked why I was in the living room. I told him he should go in the bathroom and look for himself. Still not completely convinced, I had to go in and point the line out to him. He was immediately on his phone looking up faint lines on google! I thought it was funny that he wasn’t sure whether or not to believe it. After some looking, he agreed that I am in fact pregnant. We spent a little time lying in bed just talking and cuddling and just being happy together in the moment.

This morning, 12dpo, I got a positive on a Clearblue digital.

PREGNANT! That little word has made it feel so much more real. Along with the cramping that I am having, and the way I feel like I’m running a fever is a special little reminder that I have a secret of this little miracle happening inside of me.

Wednesday would be the day my period would arrive so I am still feeling anxious while waiting to see if she stays away, as she should. I am praying that I stay pregnant and have a healthy 9 months ahead of me. I don’t want to dwell on the bad things that could happen because that would take away from the joy I am feeling now. God does answer prayers and he has blessed our lives tremendously with this gift. I am amazed. <3