Filet Mignon Bruschetta

Its Friday, and I wanted to get a post on the blog today. Recently I have tried out some fun and creative recipes and figured I could share one of my favorites on here. There is an Italian Restaurant that Jonathan and I will eat at on occasion called Giambanco's. They have this one appetizer that we order everytime we go because it is so yummy! It is the Filet Mignon Bruschetta, and I decided I would remake it at home as a meal for dinner one night, and boy am I glad I did! It is sooooooo good, you have to try it. I promise you won't be disappointed.

Of course my finished product didn't really look like Giambanco's, it still had the same amazing flavor.

This recipe will make about 5-6 servings as an appetizer OR 2-3 servings as a meal.

You will need:

Asparagus, I used one bunch which had about 24 spears.

2 Medium Onions, sliced in long strips

1 baguette or French bread sliced

2 Filet Mignon, (about 1 lb)

1 Boursin Garlic & Herb cheese spread

olive oil

salt and pepper

First, chop off the asparagus heads at about 3.5-4 inches long. Wash and place in a bowl.

Add a bit of olive oil, salt and pepper and mix around so asparagus is coated. Set to side.

Next, begin to caramelize sliced onion in pan with olive oil or butter.

Once these start to golden, Put asparagus in a separate pan to sauté.

Slice French bread into round crostini's. Toast if desired. Spread decent amount of the Boursin Cheese on each.

 

My husband cooked the steaks outside on the grill about 7 minutes per side for a medium well cook. Once he brought the steaks in, I sliced into strips and began to assemble.

 2 asparagus heads on top of the cheese spread, 1 or two slices of steak on top of asparagus, then the yummy caramelized onions on top of steak.

Ta-da! Enjoy!

Life Update: Moving Forward after Pregnancy Loss

It’s been a little while since I’ve shared on here. I’m sure you can understand after our recent loss that it has taken me some time to mentally level out my emotions, which still swing from one way to the other often. One day I’m angry, the next day I’m sad, then a while later I am happy and positive and motivated. It’s really weird how the mood swings have been. Its funny to think that one day, I am gung ho about going for it again right away, next day I want to wait for a couple months, and other days I think I just want to wait even longer. Not sure quite at this point what I want for sure, and that’s okay. I am giving myself this freedom and time to just take care of me and my needs, while trying to grow from this experience. I will know when I am ready to try again.

My OB retires here soon and 3/9 will be her last day seeing patients. Thanks to her, she called me in one more round of Clomid to take next cycle OR when we are ready. Just having the prescription in my possession has made a world of difference in how I am feeling. Like somehow having it is giving me some kind of control back, that when I am ready to try again, I have what I need. Makes me feel a bit more at peace with this “in between” time of giving my body a break from all the medicine. I always have to remind myself that I have been inducing my periods with Provera for nearly a year now. Then I’ve thrown two rounds of Clomid on top of that. I know that doesn’t seem like much but when it is hormones that you’re messing with, it can have a huge effect on your body and mind.

I really hope that one day I will be able to take this experience I’ve gained, and will be able to share my story and maybe help other women. Right now, I am only this comfortable and confident behind a keyboard. To talk about it in person would probably break me.

I went to have a manicure/fill in this past Sunday, and a girl I went to high school with was sitting and waiting so I sat with her. She had obviously come with a friend who was getting her pedicure done a few feet away and they were talking. Topic of their discussion, a girl who recently had a miscarriage. Then about another girl they knew that miscarried every time she got pregnant. I wanted to either crawl into a corner or jump out of my skin and run out of there. I wasn’t sure which would have been best and was starting to tear up when they finally changed the subject. A few moments later, the girl I knew turned to talk to me. Turns out, it was her first time getting out of the house since having her baby boy about a month prior. Of course she showed me picture on her phone which I dutifully “Awwed” and said “how cute” as she went through a few. When questioned, I simply lied. Said we had started trying, but nothing yet. She said her and her boyfriend tried a couple months then took a break and got pregnant during that time. I was glad she was called next because she was going on and on about maternity leave and giving birth and all the things new mommies like to talk about. I was trying so hard to politely keep the conversation impersonal, so I could keep my emotions in check.



After my nails, I picked up my girlfriend Candace and we went to our friend Kristyn’s “Baby Sprinkle” for her 2nd baby) at Carini’s Italian Restaurant. It was a very short and sweet baby shower, and it was nice to see her and give her a hug. But I so needed a drink after all that. That margarita at the bar following the shower was right on time.





I didn’t really think too much about it until my mom said something to me on Monday. She said she couldn’t believe how strong I was being, spending my time at a baby shower and hanging out with my friend Candace regularly that just had her 2nd baby. I don’t really think I am that strong, because it still gets to me. I still feel the sting and the pain. It hasn’t gone anywhere. The sadness still has a grip on me. But I want to continue to live. I don’t want my sadness and grief stop me from moving forward with life. Infertility has had me in a chokehold I feel like, and now that I know that I CAN (and will again) get pregnant, I want to go back to living my life, not living infertility. I had let it consume me there for a while and it’s good to kind of have a new found sense of freedom. I am getting better every day. I recently started reading a 60-Day Devotional called “In Due Time” by Caroline Harries. It has helped me tremendously over the past few days to realign my thinking and what I am putting my hope in. And having faith that I know one day, God’s promises to me will come true. He would not place these desires in my heart if they weren’t going to be reality. I’ve been trying to pray more and focus more on the fact that anything is possible for God and his timing is and will be perfect. My heart has been feeling a bit lighter since starting the devotional. And I am actually doing it the right way. I am journaling and making notes and reading scripture and digging more into what I am reading. Also, I am sticking to one Devotion a day, instead of reading a whole bunch at once like I have with past devotionals. I highly recommend it to anyone who is struggling with a period of “waiting” for something hoped for, although it is geared towards women fighting infertility.



This weekend I am going to try to get my butt back into gear, starting with house chores. I have fallen behind on just about everything and feel a weekend of being productive at home will do me some good. Jonathan has been working late every night this week so I know he’s going to want to get out of the house this weekend for some fun, making it the perfect time for me to blast my Led Zeppelin Pandora station in the livingroom and get some stuff done!