Pregnant!

(Disclaimer: Sadly, this pregnancy was not a successful one. I started to miscarry only a few short days after finding out I was pregnant.)


I am completely amazed and excited to say that my 2^nd round of Clomid worked! I actually ovulated and SURPRISE!!! I’M PREGNANT! I cannot believe it. Jonathan and I are over the moon with joy that God has given us this precious gift. It feels like we had been trying for so long, and now that it’s actually happened it seems so surreal.

On CD18 I had a pretty large jump in my BBT temp along with my first PEAK reading on the Clearblue advanced fertility monitor.

I thought it was strange that the temp rise indicated I had ovulated the day before. The next day, fortunately was a snow day and I didn’t have to go to work because I was SUPER tender in my right ovary area. I mean, REALLY tender! It hurt to cough even. Around 4:30 that day, I was hurting so bad that I was shaky and felt like I was about to throw up! So I laid in my bathroom floor curled up for about 20 minutes, after which the pain started to subside. Never went away completely though. I thought to myself, “Well I’ve already ovulated, so I don’t know what the heck that was.” I got my crosshairs on Fertility friend the next day for CD 17 so I was really confused. Temps continued to rise and on Saturday, FF moved my crosshairs to CD19, same day I had all the pain! I was amazed but so confident that it was accurate, I had in fact ovulated and we were officially in the TWW.

7dpo I started having the slightest twinges in the center, which of course had me semi excited thinking that I could be implanting. Those little pains continued randomly so I started by testing at 9 dpo, which was negative. 10dpo I had what was the FAINTEST hint of a line you could possibly have, so I wasn’t convinced.

 Took another test that afternoon with just slightly a little more visible but still not really there.

 

I was truly believing that I was pregnant while Jonathan still wasn’t sure. He didn’t think he saw anything and just was sort of in denial while I was jumping around the house like a crazy woman, going to the bathroom every 20 minutes to look at the test again.

11dpo’s test was what I consider to be my BFP!

 It was still super faint, but more visible than the day before. I pulled out a onesie that I have had hidden since we first started TTC and put in by the bathroom sink with the test.

Jonathan woke up around 6:30AM and asked why I was in the living room. I told him he should go in the bathroom and look for himself. Still not completely convinced, I had to go in and point the line out to him. He was immediately on his phone looking up faint lines on google! I thought it was funny that he wasn’t sure whether or not to believe it. After some looking, he agreed that I am in fact pregnant. We spent a little time lying in bed just talking and cuddling and just being happy together in the moment.

This morning, 12dpo, I got a positive on a Clearblue digital.

PREGNANT! That little word has made it feel so much more real. Along with the cramping that I am having, and the way I feel like I’m running a fever is a special little reminder that I have a secret of this little miracle happening inside of me.

Wednesday would be the day my period would arrive so I am still feeling anxious while waiting to see if she stays away, as she should. I am praying that I stay pregnant and have a healthy 9 months ahead of me. I don’t want to dwell on the bad things that could happen because that would take away from the joy I am feeling now. God does answer prayers and he has blessed our lives tremendously with this gift. I am amazed. <3

Get to Know Me

Hello all, I figured I would do a fun tag post today so you can get to know me. So lets get right to it!

Get to Know Me, 25 questions answered

1. What's your middle name? Before getting married, my middle name was Ann. This was also my mom's middle name before she got married. I do have plans to pass down the Ann if I am lucky enough to have a daughter one day.

2. What was your favorite subject in school? Art. I loved anything art related. No I am not a good artist like many people I was in class with. But I enjoyed it and was decent I guess. I took Art 1-5, Ceramics 1-2 and Independent Study all throughout middle and high school. Once I started community college, I took a liking to History. I think its because I enjoyed my professor's method of teaching.

3. What is your favorite drink? Okay, so I of course love water and drink it pretty much all day long. Soda wise, Diet Dr Pepper. Lastly, alcohol wise, I enjoy Moscato, Bud Light or a Whiskey/Bourbon and Ginger Ale.

4. Favorite Song at the moment? Definitely, "O Come to the Alter" by Elevation Worship. I CANNOT stop listening to it. Other than that, Jonathan and I both have been loving LANCO's "The Greatest Love Story" and Blake Shelton's "I'll Name the Dogs"... Both are catchy and super sweet <3

5. What is your favorite food? PASTA, TACOS and ITALIAN STYLE PIZZA! Nope, couldn't pick just one.

6. What is the last thing you bought? I bought some new house plants from Lowes over the weekend. I am ready for winter to be over and spring to come! The greenery in my livingroom makes me feel like spring isn't 57 days away.

7. What is your favorite book? Easy, my Bible.

8. What is your favorite color? Green, or like a tealy blue.

9. Do you have any pets? We currently have 2 female cats, Booger and Lucy. They hate each other. And we have 1 female dog, Kayla. As many know, we had to put down our male dog Oscar last Monday. Its been a tough adjustment to make not having him around. Kayla is having a really hard time. He's been her big brother all her life and she's missing him for sure.

10. What is your favorite Perfume? Ralph by Ralph Lauren has been my signature scent for years.

11. What is your favorite holiday? Christmas... duh. Haha!

12. Are you married? Yes, Jonathan and I got married June 25, 2016 and had been dating since June of 2010.

13. Ever been out of the country? Yes, I went to Mexico with my mom when I was 11. Other than that, Jonathan and I honeymooned in the US Virgin Islands, which is not technically out of the country, but felt like a different world being there.

14. Do you speak another language? I took two years of Spanish in high school, then two years of French. Then in college, I took another 2 semesters of French, and to be honest, it did not stick at all. I can count and tell you my name in Spanish. Also I can say please and thank you. Same goes for French except I could also order a ham and cheese sandwich. Which is good to know at least I won't starve if I was to visit France.

15. Do you have any siblings? No, none of my own. But I inherited several when marrying Jonathan. I gained two half sister-in-laws, two half brother-in-laws, and two step brother-in-laws.

16. Where are your favorite places to shop? Target, of course. I also love Marshall's and Ross. Grocery shopping, I used to be a Food Lion girl, but recently converted to Publix and LOVE IT!

17. What is your favorite restaurant? Mexico is my go to place. But one place I've only been to once and dying to go again is Carrabba's!

18. When was the last time you cried? Yesterday.

19. What is your favorite blog to read? I love Amber Massey's BLOG!!!

20. What is your favorite movie? I guess I don't have a favorite, but I do have a couple that I just have to watch when its on, no matter how many times I've seen it. Twister, The Lost Boys, Nightmare Before Christmas, Forest Gump, Thirteen, just to name a few.

21. What are your favorite TV shows? Okay, so disclaimer... I watch way too much TV. A few shows I loved but are now over. Pretty Little Liars, True Blood, Dawson's Creek, One Tree Hill. Shows I watch currently, The Bachelor, Nashville, The Good Doctor, Shameless, Modern Family, The Big Bang Theory, and my current favorite... This Is Us <3

22. What do you do in your free time? In times where I have absolutely nothing to do, I tend to gravitate towards Youtube. I watch a few people regularly. LaVitaDiMeg/Megan Leigh is one that I have watched for years (I love her!), KKandbabyJ, Aaryn Williams, OKBaby, RawAlignment are a few that I always watch.

23. What kind of phone do you have? iphone 7 plus.

24. How tall are you? I am 5'2, 5'3 on a good day.

25. Do you cook? Yes, I love to cook and bake and try all kinds of new foods. I am married to a picky eater though, so I don't get to experiment as much as I'd like.

I hope you enjoyed getting to know me just a little better, even if its not anything deep or super personal. I may try to do more "tag" posts like this in the future to try to keep content coming. Super easy to answer a bunch of questions vs writing about my day to day all the time.

Weekend Recap : 1/4-1/8

It SNOWED! Last Wednesday night into Thursday we got about 5 inches at my house, which was enough to give me a snow day off from work. I was so happy to have that day. I would say I LOVE snow, but it would kind of be a lie. I love how pretty the snow is and I love when I get a snow day off from work, but I don't actually care to spend time out in the snow at all. Too cold!

Since I had the day off, I was able to get so much done around the house. I cleaned our bedroom from top to bottom, changed sheets, dusted, vacuumed, did laundry, reorganized Jonathan's dresser and put away all of his summer clothes (late I know). I was so happy with how much I accomplished I decided to take it easy the remaining part of the day and watched two movies, "Personal Shopper" and "Get Out."

Friday, I did have to return to work but it was a good day. And since it didn't feel like Friday, that made it even better. I also worked Friday evening in our home office for about 3 hours. I had to close out everything for the end of 2017 so we can prepare for tax time.

Saturday, Jonathan and I decided we would just spend the day together. We went to the bank and post office, got breakfast, then decided to ride around and just look at the snow. We first went to the local boat landing so we could see the ice floating on the James River. It wasn't completely iced over, but was still cool to see.

Made me sad though because here locally, we just had 2 young men go missing on the river. They went out on Wednesday to repair some duck blinds; I am guessing the wind must have flipped their boat. Rescue efforts the next day were difficult due to weather, but eventually those rescue efforts became a recovery mission. They are now looking for bodies because there is no way the pair would have survived with how cold it has been, especially if they were thrown into the water. I went to high school with one of the guys, didn't know him personally. Just had me thinking about them as we were looking at the ice on the river. I know their families world's are falling apart and I cannot help but to hurt for them. Breaks my heart to know that more than likely, these two boys are dead, and their families don't even have bodies to bury at this point.

After leaving there, we went to Battlefield Park to ride through there and see a few trenches. It was way to cold to get out and walk around, so we just made a short drive through. I've always found American History to be very exciting and fascinating, so its always a treat to ride through and talk about the Civil War fought, pretty much right in our backyard.

 We were going to continue riding around for pleasure, but Jonathan got a service call and had to go to work. The rest of the day was spent lazing around the house and dinner at the Shake Shop/Sandston Bistro.

Sunday, we woke up around 10. It was too late for us to shower and get ready for church. I've been feeling a disconnect lately and I think its because I have not been to church in a while. We also have missed several Bible studies over the last few weeks because of work/sickness/life. I am needing to refocus and realign myself. We do plan on attending study this Thursday, and I am so looking forward to it. Since, we didn't go to church Sunday and since Jonathan has been going stir crazy with the cold weather, we decided to shop/window shop. We went and got lunch at the mall, they have the best Teriyaki Chicken! Then we went to Green Top, Bass Pro, Marshalls and Best Buy! I bought a few things for the house, spring décor mostly. Jonathan bought us a 4K movie player and two movies. He also needed a new Carhartt jacket since his zipper broke on his other one. Being someone who works inside of freezers, in attics and on the roofs of buildings, he has to stay in a nice work coat that will hold up to rough wear and tear. After shopping, home to laze around the house some more. All in all it was an uneventful weekend.

I finished taking the 5 days of Clomid on Sunday, so I am ready to get things going! Pretty uneventful this go around. I am thinking its because I knew what to expect while taking it. I had a couple headaches, a couple hot flashes, some moodiness and a few small/quick pains in the ovary area. I know the cramps/twinges will more than likely just increase over the next few days, and I am just praying that I actually ovulate like I am supposed to!